Wednesday, July 18, 2012

two kids..... can you say crazy?!

Having two kids is a blessing. There are a lot of woman out there who would trade places with me in a heart beat. But having two kids is a lot harder than it looks and what I thought it would be. One kid was a breeze, piece of cake, no problem! Now having to take care of a new born again takes up so much time. Star is really having problems with it. Most days she does well. As long as I let her hold Lola, or tickle her, play pattie cake, help in any way, etc.. she does well.... most of the time. There are those few moments tho, when I am unable to focus on Star cause I am in the middle of nursing and she goes crazy and hits Lola. I hate to admit this, but the first time she did that I slapped Star across the face. I have never felt so horrible in my life, I cried!

How do I expect Star not to hit Lola, when I did the very same thing to her. It's been really hard cause having a c-section I am unable to pick Star up for four weeks (which is over on Monday... THANK GOODNESS!!) So playing with her has been a little tough. I try so hard to manage my time with her but I feel terrible that it may not be as exciting as it was or could be. I pray that in a month or so things will calm down and get into a routine that will share my time more equally among the two little ones.

Out of all this chaos I am still so grateful for these two beautiful girls. I never knew I could have this much love. I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for entrusting me with these sweet spirits. He has a lot of faith in me, and I am grateful for that!

P.S. Any mommies with advice would be most helpful. I admire you for being able to have more than one kid, cause it is not easy but so very worth it!!

3 comments:

  1. You're awesome. You're doing great. A slap on the cheek doesn't make you an evil mommy. Love all the updates! Please keep them coming!

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  2. what do you mean that the first one was a piece of cake? gosh... am i in for a treat when I have another one lol

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  3. There's a major adjustment period when you add any kid to the mix. I think it takes a couple months to get back into a routine. Just hang in there, you're doing great! :)

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